it just isnt acceptable

My feelings towards you should really matter. I understand we could never be more than what we were but I loved you and part of me will always love you. So you asking me if it is ok that you ask my friend to dinner isn't even slightly cool it hurt it stung and it made me realize how you really are. You claim that it will be nothing more than dinner but wasnt the first time we hung out not supposed to be just two friends hanging out and you pursued sex with me. You pursued sex with me every time we associated with each other. I miss being able to run away with you for an evening but a roller coaster of emotions isnt acceptable. Why not instead of trying to find someone else to sleep with you why not be a good husband and father.

The bad urge

I have a really sudden really bad urge to text him. Bad bad me hes bad for you hes a virus that brings you down and made your life hell for over a year.  why would you even consider it.